Happy New Year!

Well the New Year is almost here and with that comes Savannah's three month birthday! It is amazing how fast she has grown. She is a now a smiling machine and even throws in an occasional giggle. She is also really getting the hang of what her hands are for. I just wish she used them more on her toys than she does trying to hang from my ponytail! She has rolled onto her side once but I am sure it won't be long until she does it all the time!

Christmas has come and gone. It was an exhausting day for Savannah but she made out like a bandit! She was showered with all kinds of toys and clothes from both sets of grandparents, aunt, uncle and even her great aunt and uncle who were here in town.  It was also the first time she had ever met her Great Grandpa. It was very touching and when my Mom took him home he claimed it to be "the best Christmas" he has had in a very very long time!

2010 has been a long year and frankly I am happy to see it go! It was a hard year in which I lost one Grandmother to lung cancer shortly before Savannah was born and then lost my other Grandmother at 102 years old very shortly after. I know Savannah now has two wonderful angels looking over her but it was a lot for me to take while being so overloaded with hormones. I also lost two family friends within weeks of each other just a few months ago.

Then there was Savannah's birth that did not go anything like I had planned or had imagined. The news of Savannah's birth defects were emotionally devastating at the time. It came with a lot of guilt and inner reflection and I now see and truly believe that I did nothing to cause her problems. Somethings just happen and we will never know the reasons why they happen.

The good things about 2010 are: I found out just how great and supportive my family and friends are, the birth of my "perfect!" daughter, and I found out just how great my husband is. He has been there for me for every rough moment this year. He took care of Savannah and I while we were in the hospital and made sure that we both had everything we needed. He was my shoulder to cry on and never made me feel bad for crying too much. I love the fact that he would take shifts to feed Savannah just so I could get more sleep. Now more than ever I positive that I found the perfect partner for the rest of my life!

I know 2011 is going to be another difficult year with Savannah's upcoming surgery in a few months. Even with that difficulty I know happiness and relief will follow instead of sadness and grief. Happy new year to all. I wish you happiness and good health! Love, Jen, Brian and Savannah!